no voice to speakk...

i've no voice to speak with juss a silent mummer in the wind the thoughts and dreams die on my lips and i see my heart fall as it slips.. i no longer know left from right nor do i know if i shall sleep tonight.. i'll lie awake and think of you until my visions are subdued by the silent dreams that haunt me.. when the rising sun awakens me i hear the same sad slow beat the beat of my heart as it echos me. slow and sad.... slow and sad.. when i stagger to the edge of the desk i feel the deep presure growing in my chest.. im sorry for what i've done. the saddnes in me has finally won.

school

Hey i know i havent blogged in a while i've been really busy in school with cheering and what not. I should have a new poem on with in the next few days if i can find some inspiration.. good luck to me!

writers bock

so i was getting on here to write another poem and i realized i have writers block :( i havent has inspriation lately or anything of the sort... it kinda sucks because i enjoy writing so much..

im lost..

so today i found out a boy i had like for a very long time is datin someone else, but the thing is he would never date me and we have been bestfriends forever... i dont know what is wrong with me that he would choose her over me... i juss dont know how to deal with things like that.. i wanted to cry but i cant cry because truthfully he juss drug me threw the dirt over and over again with him liking me only when i was dating someone.. it juss doesnt make sense i dont know if i will ever really be happy because someone said to me that im not going to be happy because i dont know what i want and it made me realize i dont know what i want i dont know what really even makes me happy.. am i broken? is there something wrong with me that makes me push everyone away once they start to get close to me? will i ever really be happy i juss dont know anymore.. any advise anyone?