no voice to speakk...

i've no voice to speak with juss a silent mummer in the wind the thoughts and dreams die on my lips and i see my heart fall as it slips.. i no longer know left from right nor do i know if i shall sleep tonight.. i'll lie awake and think of you until my visions are subdued by the silent dreams that haunt me.. when the rising sun awakens me i hear the same sad slow beat the beat of my heart as it echos me. slow and sad.... slow and sad.. when i stagger to the edge of the desk i feel the deep presure growing in my chest.. im sorry for what i've done. the saddnes in me has finally won.

school

Hey i know i havent blogged in a while i've been really busy in school with cheering and what not. I should have a new poem on with in the next few days if i can find some inspiration.. good luck to me!

writers bock

so i was getting on here to write another poem and i realized i have writers block :( i havent has inspriation lately or anything of the sort... it kinda sucks because i enjoy writing so much..

im lost..

so today i found out a boy i had like for a very long time is datin someone else, but the thing is he would never date me and we have been bestfriends forever... i dont know what is wrong with me that he would choose her over me... i juss dont know how to deal with things like that.. i wanted to cry but i cant cry because truthfully he juss drug me threw the dirt over and over again with him liking me only when i was dating someone.. it juss doesnt make sense i dont know if i will ever really be happy because someone said to me that im not going to be happy because i dont know what i want and it made me realize i dont know what i want i dont know what really even makes me happy.. am i broken? is there something wrong with me that makes me push everyone away once they start to get close to me? will i ever really be happy i juss dont know anymore.. any advise anyone?

shallow eyes

Shallow eyes
Covered by deep lies
He tells her his story
But in her heart there is still worry
She smiles and walks away
But she just cant believe its all ok
She doesnt believe his deep lies
She sees it in her shallow eyes

some more of my poetry keep checking and i will try to post everyday (:

impact

In the midst of the night  you are my shining light to carry me through the darkness to the other side, you are my windy breeze  on those cool summer nights,  your everything i need to get  through the day, and i dont know why but everytime i hear ur voice it takes my breath away, and baby when i think of you my vision comes in twos,..you are my breathe of fresh air in the cool mornings dawn, you are my twinkle in the sky when the days light has gone, your everything i need.. without you im just a lonesome unwatered seed.

im a poet.. its what i do..

 I trace the space between my fingers where yours belong, and I realize its been you all along in my dreams holding me in my nightmares saving me you save me from life itself without your gentle touch, the world to me will become to much. It will take over my heart and force me weak, and for my new found life it shall seek, I'll reach for you in my darkest hours, but the world again takes my heart and makes it cower, I cry out your name and I'm looked down on in shame. They ask me why I call your name for you are the one who shall be living in shame for what you have done to me they ask for my reasoning as to why I can't let you be, I being to cry and my tears are dark as night, I straighten up and fight them with all my might, I cant let them see me weak or for my mind will be the next thing they shall seek, they try to rule your body control your life, no not me I'll fight with strife, with all my strength and ability, I'll make them cower with humility. I've won for you my love, now I will rise my hand and remove my gloves to reveal that it is I who wears your ring in love. ♥ jaya